Yup...the cheese stands alone. i am the cheese.
even the closest dissappoint. And when the dissapointments come, doubt follows.
You just can't depend on anyone i suppose.
i'm number one right? gotta look out for number one
and number one thinks u r full of shit.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Mute it to a whisper
EYYYYYOOOOOOOHHHH
Hey stranger. It's been awhile. Here's an update:
Got a 95 honda for a lil bit of money. it's awesome runs good. no problems yet. I actually saved money from buying this car. i was prepared to spend more than i did. SAWEEEET. Kudos to thompsen and his car finding skills at the last possible second.
We bought our wedding bands. now i suppose i should get the other planning started. Still shooting for May of 2010. i know i should be excited about planning....but im the type of gal that likes things done for her. i was thinking about doing it in a backyard to save money but i think im going to have to double check that. there would be alot of stuff i would have to do myself and it could potentially be more costly than a hall. so im gunna have to start making phone calls now and figuring it out. Well not me....but my mom. i have to make her start to go things for me. she'll be a planner for me :p
on another note:
Lately i've been feelin sad. in all honesty, the only people who seem to have the desire to talk to me is my fam and fiance. It's hurtful.
and i know, i shouldn't beat myself up over what defines me as a person. I know that in my heart i am genuine. i am a good person. I guess that the distance makes me take it personally.
i'm paranoid, or im right. Who knows really.
i can make all sorts of excuses for it. But i should just keep movin on. i've got the future on my mind. i've been frugal with all my money. i should treat myself but i need to save. i wanna get married. i would like to move out of state. i just can't live like this if i wanna have kids. i feel as though i'm merely here to get more experience before i move.
Remember how close we all were when we were young? everyone knew everyone's business. and it was "so drama". So annoying right? And now sometimes.....all i want is to know every part of it. Instead of us all hanging out to the point of irritation.......I feel like we dont know eachother anymore. i know that sounded dramatic. but i mean the little things. They seem so far away now dont they? I guess this is life...finding our paths. everyones still connected but its just different.
i cant believe im saying this, but i would totally go back to being a punk kid if i could. just for a day. but i would totally do it. it was kinda fun.
omg....i think that im having cuddling withdrawals..... yes....that explains this rant. God...i need cuddling. i need friends lol.
Hey stranger. It's been awhile. Here's an update:
Got a 95 honda for a lil bit of money. it's awesome runs good. no problems yet. I actually saved money from buying this car. i was prepared to spend more than i did. SAWEEEET. Kudos to thompsen and his car finding skills at the last possible second.
We bought our wedding bands. now i suppose i should get the other planning started. Still shooting for May of 2010. i know i should be excited about planning....but im the type of gal that likes things done for her. i was thinking about doing it in a backyard to save money but i think im going to have to double check that. there would be alot of stuff i would have to do myself and it could potentially be more costly than a hall. so im gunna have to start making phone calls now and figuring it out. Well not me....but my mom. i have to make her start to go things for me. she'll be a planner for me :p
on another note:
Lately i've been feelin sad. in all honesty, the only people who seem to have the desire to talk to me is my fam and fiance. It's hurtful.
and i know, i shouldn't beat myself up over what defines me as a person. I know that in my heart i am genuine. i am a good person. I guess that the distance makes me take it personally.
i'm paranoid, or im right. Who knows really.
i can make all sorts of excuses for it. But i should just keep movin on. i've got the future on my mind. i've been frugal with all my money. i should treat myself but i need to save. i wanna get married. i would like to move out of state. i just can't live like this if i wanna have kids. i feel as though i'm merely here to get more experience before i move.
Remember how close we all were when we were young? everyone knew everyone's business. and it was "so drama". So annoying right? And now sometimes.....all i want is to know every part of it. Instead of us all hanging out to the point of irritation.......I feel like we dont know eachother anymore. i know that sounded dramatic. but i mean the little things. They seem so far away now dont they? I guess this is life...finding our paths. everyones still connected but its just different.
i cant believe im saying this, but i would totally go back to being a punk kid if i could. just for a day. but i would totally do it. it was kinda fun.
omg....i think that im having cuddling withdrawals..... yes....that explains this rant. God...i need cuddling. i need friends lol.
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