I wanna put on...mymymymymy boogie shoes

Geez Louise!! I know I know…it’s been hella long since I’ve updated. It’s been pretty stressful and I haven’t worked too much this month. But I’m back now and hopefully I’ll have more time to let y’all know what’s going on. Let me try to recap and condense:

Found out that I was sperminated on my birthday. Had an induced miscarriage the week after. The second day after this, I got into a car accident injuring myself and totaled my car. Luckily it was not my fault and I am now suing for personal injury. Then Brian gets into an accident in my rental car the day before we are due to give it back. (Don’t worry though, it was not his fault and has been cleared. It has no effect on my case.) Find out the day we return the car that the miscarriage worked, so I guess something is going right. Took a much need stress free vacay in Fl. Got to see my family, Courtney and her new edition (She’s beautiful and still so tiny. Court loves being a mom. Things are well.) When It was time to leave I just became so much more emotional than I usually do. I think with everything that’s happened, I just wasn’t ready to go. I was down there with the people that loved me my whole life and I felt like returning here would be a return to more bad luck. Plus I didn’t want to leave my niece. She was so attached to me so quickly, and I to her as well. I never understand quite how much I love and miss her until I have to leave. And with everything going on lately, knowing that I wouldn’t be seeing them for awhile made me break down. I can’t even really type this without tears coming to my eyes. I just don’t want to be away from them anymore. Everyone’s havin babies, getting engaged and going ahead. And here I am…car less and alone most of the time…wondering when the hell the next chapter will form.

Three different people asked me when I’m getting married. Once I tell them how many years it’s been that question seems to come next. My answer “Ask him”. He just got this job not too long ago, and he’s doing really well. I’ve got my case I need to stay faithful to for awhile. Most likely 6 months to a year. So I guess nothing can really progress until those things are taken care of. I’m not sure how far his job will take him. They talk about giving him a van. They talk about him possibly taking over this sewage and drainage company that Pete might buy. But these things aren’t coming anytime soon. In about a year…that’s all I can really estimate. I can’t really make too many decisions until I get my settlement.

The good news is that the check for the car will clear by Thursday, so hopefully I can have the car in my possession by the weekend. Then I just gotta register it and I’m one step closer to sanity. I can’t wait to do the simple things that made me happy: Get my nails done, food shop, and visit my buddies when Brian is working. It’s crazy how bent out of shape we can get when those little things get taken away from us. You never know how much u needed to do those things until your inconvenienced. I googled the car and I gotta say…it’s a huge frikken truck! I have no idea how I’m gunna get use to it. Especially parking. Oh god. Baby steps I suppose.

Also I’m still on that semi diet of not eating bread. And it kind of blows! I did lose weight though. Now I just need to go to the flippin gym. SOON. laterrrrr